Concerns for the day

Partiality.
Control.
Obedience.
Morality.

Old addiction

Intimacy resonates, making isolation and loneliness palpable.

Thick, heavy.

Fatally additive.

Friends

Faith and unbelief

The thing I find most unsettling about religion or faith is that it seems to require an abandonment of a persons critical faculties. The underlying idea seems to suggest that questions and inquiry are a barrier to faith. By inquiry I mean not simply an investigation into the subject at hand but an entertainment of the idea that the subject maybe true or false.

The abandonment of reason and inquiry is a frightening prospect to me. It exposes individuals, makes them vulnerable. Leaving then open to influence and suggestion. It makes people easy to manipulate. Maybe I'm being to cynical? I don't know. I do know a number of people who are of excellent quality who believe in god absolutely. From my knowledge of them their brains seem to work quite independently and also very adequately.

With that in mind It is fair to say I do not understand faith, at least when it comes to the concept of 'god' or 'gods'. I didn't grow up with it so I feel that I lack the necessary 'priming' that belief in something as abstract as God requires. Faith seems to ask, "abandon your doubt and skepticism". I guess the reason this is asked of a believer is that doubt and skepticism appear to be antithetical to faith. Perhaps I'm wrong, but this seems to be the case.

The Christian God, or what I know of the concept and it's related stories are no more true to me than say Sauron, Gandalf and the plot of 'Lord of the Rings'. Both stories, to me at least, are equally fantastic. Once again I feel that to believe in a thing like the bible one must be primed from an early age or least be susceptible, via physical or emotional trauma, to the palliative carrot of an eternal, loving father figure and it's accompanying after life.

I am an atheist. The world I live in has no god although I cannot prove it. In my limited experience and knowledge I see no evidence that puts the argument for god beyond reasonable doubt, and for those who would attempt to convince me otherwise I would say to you that the burden of proof lies predominantly with you.

Sunday

In individuals faith replaces humility, and the admission "I do not know".

Carl Sagan on Evolution

Quiet monkey

The chattering monkey is quiet today.

A measure of peace has returned.

I am well and the earth is a good place again.

Peacewhatthefuck

I am so used to speaking all of time. Thinking all of the time. It's has gotten me nowhere. Questions cascade into other questions. It is ceaseless. 33 years of an increasingly noisy, chattering monkey. I just want it to end.

Location:On a motherfucking bus

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Flat.
Unending.
Nothing.