Sunday, February 14, 2010


this old emotion

it is my un-reason
it is my stupidity

i am now, and have been recently


it is almost five months

where is my renewal?

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

reduce, simplify, edit

my friends no longer dare to talk to me about you. for i withdraw and sour. it makes me remember you in full. all of the wonderful things. all of the things about you that hurt me. i am tired of caring about you, how i have lost you. im not even sure really what it is i have lost? for i never really had you did i? i just remember a mountain of love and a sequence of beautiful experiences and then collapse. the most precise, blood chilling hurt i have ever felt. now your image is degrading. i guess that is a good thing. i wish i came with a reset button. memory wipe. emotional delete. access to a permanent goodbye.